Saturday, July 19, 2008

The Beautiful Test of Integrity

heart to heart

Lt. John Blanchard stood up from the bench, straightened his Army
uniform, and studied the crowd of people making their way through Grand
Central Station. He looked for the girl whose heart he knew, but whose
face he didn't ... the girl with the rose.

His interest in her began thirteen months before in a Florida library.
Taking a book off the shelf he found himself intrigued, not with the
words of the book, but with the notes penciled in the margin. The soft
handwriting reflected a thoughtful soul and insightful mind. In the
front of the book, he discovered the previous owner's name, Miss Hollis
Maynell.

With time and effort he located her address. She lived in New York City.
He wrote her a letter introducing himself and inviting her to
correspond. The next day he was shipped overseas for service in World
War II.


During the next year and one month, the two grew to know each other
through the mail. Each letter was a seed falling on a fertile heart. A
romance was budding.

Blanchard requested a photograph, but she refused. She felt that if he
really cared, it wouldn't matter what she looked like.

When the day finally came for him to return from Europe, they scheduled
their first meeting--7 pm at the Grand Central Station in New York.

"You'll recognize me," she wrote, "by the red rose I'll be wearing on my
lapel."

So at 7:00 he was in the station looking for a girl whose heart he
loved, but whose face he'd never seen. I'll let Mr. Blanchard tell you
what happened:

A young woman was coming toward me, her figure long and slim. Her blonde
hair lay back in curls from her delicate ears; her eyes were blue as
flowers. Her lips and chin had a gentle firmness, and in her pale green
suit, she was like springtime come alive. I started toward her, entirely
forgetting to notice that she was not wearing a rose.

As I moved, a small, provocative smile curved her lips. "Goin' my way,
soldier?" she murmured.

Almost uncontrollably I made one step closer to her, and then I saw
Hollis Maynell. She was standing almost directly behind the girl. A
woman well past 40, she had graying hair tucked under a worn hat. She
was more than plump, her thick-ankled feet thrust into low-heeled shoes.

The girl in the green suit was walking quickly away. I felt as though I
was split in two, so keen was my desire to follow her, and yet so deep
was my longing for the woman whose spirit had truly companioned me and
upheld my own.

And there she stood. Her pale, plump face was gentle and sensible, her
gray eyes had a warm and kindly twinkle. I did not hesitate. My fingers
gripped the small worn blue leather copy of the book that was to
identify me to her. This would not be love, but it would be something
precious, something perhaps even better than love, a friendship for
which I had been and must ever be grateful.


I squared my shoulders and saluted and held out the book to the woman,
even though while I spoke I felt choked by the bitterness of my
disappointment.

"I'm Lieutenant John Blanchard, and you must be Miss Maynell. I am so
glad you could meet me; may I take you to dinner?"

The woman's face broadened into a tolerant smile. "I don't know what
this is about, son," she answered, "but the young lady in the green suit
who just went by, ... she begged me to wear this rose on my coat. And,
... she said if you were to ask me out to dinner, I should tell you that
she is waiting for you in the big restaurant across the street. ... She
said, ... it was some kind of test!"

Thursday, May 15, 2008

Carry Me Away Julia Grace

This is maybe the best song i have heard for a long time - its by Julia Grace. Poignant and Beautiful (hmm, that kinda describes my girlfriend...)

Carry Me Away

i climb a mountain with no summit
i race without a finish line
test the depths of endless water
live out the sentence that is mine

i'm the waterfall that's burst and now we're drowning
i'm the heart that learnt to beat just as it broke
i'm the voice that's frozen into silence
i'm the song that my spirit never wrote

carry me away, carry me away

i know much more than i am feeling
i win more battles than i lose
i'm taller now than when i suffered
i've gained ability to choose

i'm the child that will not leave the hand that holds me
i'm the heart that learns to beat in time with truth
i'm the complicated picture of humanity
i'm the spirit that is full of you

and if i stay here, will you comfort me
if the tears fall down, will you rescue me

carry me away, carry me away
to a dream that was almost fading
carry me away, carry me away
i know you, you're strong enough to save me

i know that you are strong enough to carry me away

Friday, January 11, 2008

from a very precious student - Jasmine Yow

http://jasmineyow.wordpress.com/2006/02/13/words-that-brightened-up-my-day/

Friday, December 01, 2006

Redeemers Fire (1997)

Night has claimed dominance over the lingering day
Dark has emphasized the picture that the blaze portray
The smoke, the mist, the earthly fire
Is this unseeming destruction of callous satire?
Dancing to the rhythm of the subtle wind, Earth' rhythmic wonderer
Prancing round the mind, these fleeting memories, lingerers.

Of the Fire more pure in stature than the one foretold
inspiration, dedication to the multitudes consoled
One so belonging to the Giver of the redeemed
contrasting in definitive nature these different flames are seemed
Servant of destruction pledges alliance to the worldy former
while the Redeemers Fire takes me higher and higher

Consummation of worldly fire turns dust to dust,
But Blessed is he to whom his whole heart trust
Exodus to our loving Father's desire
to overcome strongholds like fire comsume fire
Once touched and forged pristinely, opening our eyes to see
To be glossened and perfect like the Father wants us to be

Sunday, November 26, 2006

A Psalm (written in 1997)

Just as the consistant sea climbs fervently over the mountain heights
to break forth daunting the special uncontaminanted radiance of lights
Just like the birds flaunting their wings and voicing out aerial koos
So will I raise my hands as my soul cries after you

Just as the moon and the sea begets the cool morning breeze
that fuels the wind to russle the waves with rhythmic ease
Mayest not i ever falter, mayest not i ever be apart
from the perfect rhythm, the perfect rhythm of His heart

Just like the multitudes of shining stars that are placed in the sky
that are enhanced over a bed of clouds to which they lie
Just as the stars refuse not to continue to shine
i'll always keep this desire a desire of mine

Just as the saints lift their voices in human obedience
to proclaim Your majesty, power, might and magnificence
It's my desire to see, the multitudes, sing Hosanna in the Highest
and all nature and creation, proclaim His praises in one united chorus

AMEN.

(i saw this again recently and this psalm reflected all the dreams and power God had placed in my heart... 9 years have past... there is joys and sadness... but God has always carried us through.)

Wednesday, October 04, 2006

LeFT (v2 Oct 06)

Left a little tear, my hope it falls flat
Left out from the clear, i'm here, but where my really at?
Left to my devices, screen light cast on my face
Left over food, the rice's been cold, ants over my plate

Left to my thoughts, mulling in the dark
Left to do as i ought? hard when everyday my skin smarts
Left alone caught, in physical storms, that left scars and marks
Left in a zone wrought with questions, torn; was i left off the Ark?

Left and turn and see that there's nothing, nobody else
let it all burn, and burn, nothing's of value on my shelf; when i'm
Left in a rain of pain, blood n' sweat dripping from my head
Left in silent shame, same rudder shipping destination to dead

Left alone in this game, lame shudder, remember I read; that He
Left death, reigned and came to comfort my heart of lead
left over, a casualty too many, yet i remember You said
You'd never leave or forsake me... i remember You on my bed

Left trying to sleep, hard when you smell your wounds, but you
left me knowing, even if shelled in, You'd be coming soon
Left and right from the cross, you'd loved us all'n
Left heaven to take my place in pain so i won't be falling - so I'm

Left in the room, double bent, reverb in pain
Deaf thoughts loom, troubles sent, in pain again - But He
left a message, mr devil, does it offend you to see
that His touch and love is worth more all this - it comforts me

Left alone in my room, stripped of comfort, ease and pride
Left alone with my savior, I'll still conquer the world with Him inside.

To Jesus,
Love
Ken

Tuesday, September 19, 2006

Giants (Rage against the machine mix)

Version 2: GIANTS by Kenneth Koh

Verse 1
There’s separation between me and a winning path
trepidation, ill math, but I got my shepherd staff
I see giants [lookin like mountains] they laugh
At me – drop me like a bomb so they can have a blast
Like an outcast, climbing [out of a] deep and dark
mineshaft, even my shadow cast is so
downcast. People smiling, but is it just a mask?
But I met the One, who done, won, who could free me at last
From my past – I’m shackled by things I can’t contain
Can’t sustain the movie frame of my life – it’s insane
I strain, [looking for what’s left on the bottom] remains,
But my “remains” train came but got derailed all the same
But my feet [got put on a rock], and told me I reigned
To give victory over this is the reason He came
Blast me [over the past] & future fast like propane
Gas me up high, I look [down at ‘em] unshamed
(in the ground)

Pre:
But my name’s David and I ain’t goin’ break down
From Golliath's fake sound, I take down in 8 counts
After the shake down, I’m the only one left awake, round
stone to the head, he’s on the ground with his face down


Chorus:
Little by little, by faith, they going down
(I gone to fly away ...)
Little by little drive these giants to the ground
(... last longer than night and day)
Little by little, by faith, they going down
(... lift me higher than skyline grey)
Little by little, see them become so little, and i
can't see them now.
(... i want to fly, this way.)

Verse 2
Picture this. Imagine that.
Stage 4 cancer not once but twice God where you at?
On a bed alone crying i was broken and sad
Like mice running away, and Death was the Cat
But I can’t run anymore, I’m on the hospital bed
Vision blurred, voice slurred, eyes swollen and red.
And then I remember all the things you said
Paid my debts said I had a future instead
Nothing on heaven and earth can take your hand from me
Ten [Thousand may fall on my left] but won’t be me
Your everlasting love reverses adversity
Into destiny - You’d never ever leave me
So death where’s your victory where is your sting?
Close your toothless mouth – I see your sissy tongue-ring
I’d be Rollin Rollin over you like Fred Durst
You can stare me in the eye, guess who's gonn' blink first?

Pre:
But my name’s David and I ain’t goin’ break down
From Golliath's fake sound, I take down in 8 counts
After the shake down, I’m the only one left awake, round
stone to the head, he’s on the ground with his face down